Where did the weekend go?  Was there one?  Oh that’s right I spent most of it studying for a life science test this morning and missed it completely.  The weekend I mean, not the test.  Another lost weekend.  (I’m thinking Ray Milland without the alcohol - great film.)  Anyway, I digress.  What was I saying?  Oh yeah, I was wondering if it’s worthwhile sacrificing the truly wonderful company of family and friends in an attempt to get the highest mark I can?  And if so, why do I feel guilty? 

I was talking to one of the girls at college this morning who says that she now lives in what can only be described as a pigsty.  She irons as she goes, has no time or cash for hobbies, her garden’s badly needing done so she’s in a state of paranoia thinking the neighbours are talking about her, she doesn’t sleep, drinks Red Bull (that made me chuckle!) and spends all her time either reading text books or, alternatively, feeling guilty if she’s isn’t!  I told her it’s probably a mature student thing.  No point in doing it half baked is there but there’s really no point in killing yourself either!  (I should really listen to my own advice sometimes.)

Back to the test.  This morning we were tested on the nervous system, eye and ear.  The thing is, the lecturer is a really nice guy but I don’t actually understand much of what I’m hearing so I’m basically having to learn it from scratch each time I revise.  This isn’t particularly useful although it makes me very thorough in revision.  I do appreciate that each of us has our own way of learning and that his teaching methods might work for others when they don’t work for me.  Anyway, after my initial ‘blank and can’t remember anything’ panic I read and re-read the paper like all good students should (wish I’d done that in school a hundred years ago) and soon settled in and passed just fine.  I still dont know why I get so stressed!

So here I am, with only a few more things to do including my final placement of this semester then my first year will be over.  Has it been enjoyable?  In part.  And even though I’ve managed to get through the exams and placements with no resits or problems I have to say that the jury’s still out on the overall verdict. 

If all goes well after placement I’ll be on holiday for four weeks!!!!  Four glorious weeks of long lies and doing nothing.  Yeah, as if that’s going to happen. 

Off to ponder over a coffee and hot cross bun …